smoking

 26april12
this came up in the 1975 blogetry , and also came up again in conversation today. its probably not cool , but my first butt was kool (*brand), when i was quite young , although i did smoke passively most of them early years. plus all the other smoke about the place, like fires and such. i was buying them for people , who were sending me to the shop to buy them for the them. in those days , the sixties, anyone could buy them, maybe not, but if you said they were for a parent or someone else. i was sometimes a rather sickly creature, and didn't smoke as a habit, just a show off type of thing and no draw back. the draw back was too heavy for us youngsters. although, i did do the mexican draw back on occasions . which consisted of a drag and throwing the cig on the ground , and do a little stamping dance on it , followed by the word, ole'.

3may12
dont feel that typey  of late, mainly my mind is other places. that's the key to stop anything, a place called nothing and contentment, and as they say , all things pass. it's the time . getting back to the sixties and smoking, i remember buying my first packet of viscount , 10 in a pack 13 cents , 1967. just for something to do. after that , when it came near cracker night, in them days quite a big event. you'd spend all your dough on crackers , and unwind all the little tom thumbs , you'd have hundreds of them or less. rather than buying heaps of boxes of matches, you'd also buy a packet of cigs , just to light crackers.

5may12
this episode took place around 1969, with somebody dropping something and me finding it, something like $10 note. it was suggested i buy cigarettes. so, off we went to the shop, the other guy asked me what kind of smoke my old man smoked , not knowing what he meant, i said phillip morris soft pack, no filters. he meant for me to say something else like viscount or something, we went to a drain under the road to smoke , they were shit. we decide to get someone else to get them , we got marlboro , that was the first time i smoke them.

12may12
high school was the big ciggy thing, 1971 . i done a few weeks here and there no draw back though, i think adolescents fucks your head, when i was younger, my inhibitions were much less, then all of a sudden you forget everything . back to square one. the 1971 thing was mainly to hang out with the crowd who smoked, you had smokes you had friends type of thing, they were grubs anyways. strange that, they had some dirty fucking habits, doing the gob hangers on the toilet ceiling . i probably didn't start smoking seriously till about late 72 early 73. mainly winfield , escort and a few others like alpine for a bit. they were around 40cents a pack, i use to go without lunch somedays to support the cig fix.

15may12
s'pose i better finish this , i think why bother now, but maybe someone sometime might relate. to tell you some truth, maybe if we had the laws on smoking now back then, i might have not taken it up,  there was always suicide. smoking seemed a fun way and it was rebellious, or just plain bad. there was smoking in the toilets , round the back, down the creek, on the bus, and in the middle of the playground. the bus was the main influence, if you couldn't smoke on the bus back then well , why bother, nothing like smoking on the bus doing smoke rings and things. one incident comes to mind , one wasteful trick was to light the whole box of matches at once. this happen , and one guy hit the box underneath, and matches went flying everywhere. one landed in a girls hair and caught fire, nobody noticed straight away til smoke was seen coming from her head and the stink. everybody was hitting her head, it became a big deal after that , and the bus driver cracked down. we still smoked but done the smoke shake to stop the smoke, but occasionally got busted and kick off the bus. 

9june2012
i could go on about smoking but i dont. 35 years , 2004, i stopped. hardest thing i've done. takes about 6 months to really stop thinking about. then about 7 years to get it mostly out of the system. it got boring, i mean really boring, no buzz, just mess. eat healthy and smoke, boring boring boring

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